I Searched

And I Searched.

Submerged in suffering

I drowned ever more,

With every passing effort to defuse the agony.

There’s a constant conflict in the creature in me

For I yearn for attention

But also yearn for peace

Better yet-

Embrace the rollercoaster, there is no escalator in life.

There is great thrill in being down,

Knowing there is nowhere to go but up;

And all that goes up, gravity will pull down.

Why should I apologize

For who I am,

Or who I’ve become,

Or what I’m becoming?

If I could close my eyes

And imagine a bright sunrise

Roaring with mellow yellows

And angry reds

Tell me-

The last time you felt fear,

Where did you feel it?

Did you feel it in your chest?

SCREAM

So loud, that your voice travels to the Yukon Valley

For the pain is real,

And no one can tell you otherwise, how to feel

I pray with you

My comrade in arms

To have the courage to fight today

The next day