I Searched

And I Searched.

Submerged in suffering

I drowned ever more,

With every passing effort to defuse the agony.

There’s a constant conflict in the creature in me

For I yearn for attention

But also yearn for peace

Better yet-

Embrace the rollercoaster, there is no escalator in life.

There is great thrill in being down,

Knowing there is nowhere to go but up;

And all that goes up, gravity will pull down.

Why should I apologize

For who I am,

Or who I’ve become,

Or what I’m becoming?

Tell me-

The last time you felt fear,

Where did you feel it?

Did you feel it in your chest?